So um. Yeah.

What I had with her is replaceable, and it's awful I've only just seen this now. I can watch movies and cuddle with other people, there are other people to have sex with, and I'm sure I won't have to look long for someone who makes me feel like less than human. Maybe it wasn't worth the miniscule moments of happiness that I felt, but I've learned from you.

I know that I need to be with someone that shares my interests, instead of pretending like we have a thing in common. I know I need someone that takes my emotions into account when they're feeling upset. I need someone that knows that they are asking too much of me, and that I'm not able to cater to everything they need. I know I need someone that gives emotional support instead of just taking. I know that I deserve better than someone that made me feel like I didn't matter to them, or that what I had to say was invalid. I need someone that makes me feel like I can be me. And she deserves someone that understands her better than I do because everyone should be understood by the one they love.

I think I have someone else that can give all of that to me, and I'm going to hold on to her and give it right back for as long as I can, and that makes me feel content. I don't think I've ever felt content in a relationship, and I hope that's a good thing.