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I thought about my dad quite a bit
I miss him
I want to hug him again
I want to hear his voice
I haven't had a father in years

I saw my brother
I hugged him after a year of absence
But my mom didn't seem happy to see her own son

I had a terrible nightmare
I woke up screaming
Everyone I knew had a spike through their chest
I tried to call and it didn't go through
I never said anything after that
I had to take my midterms

I couldn't get the courage to talk about moving in with you
I found a great place close to you

After all this I failed to speak of
I could never keep my emotions from you
You comfort me so well
And I need only ask
It's high time I show that I am no child
That I am capable

It is also time to admit that I have not been acting as my full self
I could not explain why
But I know that I now see what I need to do
And that I am willing
This past month
I have failed the person I love most
I have been neglectful
Insensitive
Inattentive
And callous

I have not done right by her
I have not done right by me
I have not done what is right for us
And I have created this detriment of sadness and separation

I was neither the man I can be
Or the man I should have been
There is no reason for this
And can only be attributed to me

She has grown apart from me
A respectable position

She has matured so much over the last year
I have not shown her that I can keep up.

I have kept my emotions in, a foolish mistake

All of these things can be changed by me
Through permission of the very same person I have betrayed and mistreated the most
I have said these very same things before
And I did not hold to what I said
I would expect disbleif of any claim I make
I give no reason why I should be believed other than this:

I have been neglectful.
I have been insensitive.
I have been a child.
I have been foolish beyond belief.
I have not done as I have said.
I have given no reason to believe that I meant that I could change.
This weekend I have come to the conclusion that I want to see you in that white dress
I want to see our child run at you because they missed you
I want to help you through any and everything that could ever cross our path
I want to show you that I can be the man you have so often asked me to be

Every single thing I have failed in, I would correct

I'd get mauled by a polar bear
Take a thousand curses from a witch
Catch every giant squid in every sea
To show you how serious I am
To say that I'm in it for the long haul
To say that I truly am sorry
To say that I am the man you've needed me to be
You have my word as a gentleman
And as someone who is unfathomably in love with everything that is you, Ashley
and as someone who thinks your feelings are both valid and important 
Renewal: My sincere apology and plea
Words cannot accurately convey the seriousness, truthfulness, and sincerity that I mean to put forth in this poem.
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This month
Our annual celebration
It seems you have grown away from me
Pushed by me
Shoved by me

The fault lies on my shoulders
Though I cannot take the toll I have put on you
The turmoil and distress I have caused you
Now adds up to the exact sum of our parting
I would gladly take it all to save us
But it seems I am past due
I have left no room for redemption
And taken too many chances

My only hope is an anomaly
I can only hope to appease to your good nature
To ask - nay- beg
For this one chance
For I have not been the knight in shining armor
Or a Prince Charming
I have proven to be a red herring- leading you to believe I was able

Seeing this distress has brought things other than tears to my eyes
It has told me that
Feelings are facts
Indisputably so
Comfort is key
Unarguably so
I have feelings too
Irrefutably so
And more importantly I have relearned that

You are my sun, my stars, and the reason I want to succeed.
And I have lost that with by my own hand, effectively decapitating any chance I had to be with you

Should I get this second chance
I would give up all of my worldly possessions and sell my hair
If only to get the slimmest chance of reuniting with you

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Quentin Shepard
United States
I love writing poems, though I don't do it often. I am a pretty calm guy, I don't really get angry so don't expect it. I will usually post love poems, sometimes I might do something else every couple posts. I play guitar, like every other teenage boy on the planet, I really love to play and it's just such a fun thing to pick up. Most of my thoughts are controlled by why I do things, I don't often reflect on normal things. I hope you will enjoy my writing and I will try to read and look at all of your posts.
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forshepard Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2014   Writer
not sure how often you check dA, but i thought i would tell you that i am laying in my bed, which feels much, much lonelier without you. your shirt is losing your scent - we should fix that.

maybe you'll see this comment when you need to the most - but i thought i would say that i miss you.
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forshepard Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2012   Writer
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forbaboo Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2012
regrds
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forshepard Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2012   Writer
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forbaboo Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2012
Ahsly pls
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oc-eanwide Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012

hey so thanks for the watch <33
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forbaboo Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012
No problem, I like your posts,watch me back?
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oc-eanwide Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012

sure thing.
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forbaboo Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012
Have a good day
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KohakuJSMA Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
WOW! welcome to DA!
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